Resolve, where are you?

Last night we talked properly for the first time in a week.  Good we can connect without sex.  But as we hugged I tried to get her to kiss & picked up right away right where I left off last time trying to change her mind and exercise control over the most pleasurable thing of all.

So she held back & I could see to not keep pushing.  This morning I was going thru scenarios trying to find a loophole in how to keep promise but have an orgasm too.  Such a strong drive.  There is no way.    Grrrrrr

5/9ths

5 days down, 9 days to go

Haven't prayed, which might be why I'm still angry and distant from her. It's kinda gone quickly, but in other ways it's really difficult. God, please help!

Please let this achieve something and please heal me, Lord!

	Mon	Tue	Wed	Thu	Fri	Sat	Sun
				8th 14!	9th 13	10th 12	11th 11
	12th 10	13th 9	14th 8	15th 7	16th 6	17th 5	18th 4
	19th 3	20th 2	21st 1	22nd 0!

Another Self Imposed Dry Period

Today starts another 2 weeks of abstinence. Will have to be less affectionate so we make the whole 2 weeks this time. Thursday 22nd celebration!

She probably won't b so impressed this time, but I guess I have more confidence too.

Am hoping I am pushed to lean on God again

2 Week Countdown Starts!

	Mon	Tue	Wed	Thu	Fri	Sat	Sun
				8th 14!	9th 13	10th 12	11th 11
	12th 10	13th 9	14th 8	15th 7	16th 6	17th 5	18th 4
	19th 3	20th 2	21st 1	22nd 0!