Horny... miffed....

So, I'm okay, I'm not completely obsessed. But rather than feel thankful for the long run of every day for a while, I'm just feeling cheated that I'm not getting it every day. So short-sited. Such a bottomless pit, my lust.

Sex Addict Clean Coin?

I can see the one year mark approaching. If I was an alcoholic I could have a few pats on the back and some people would shake my hand and say, "congrats" for being clean one year.

I know it is a little thing and that's not the reason I'm fighting this battle. Still, it'd be kinda nice.

Sex addiction still has too much shame for me to enjoy that kind of open support though.

Grrrrrr.

Felt really angry today. Wanted a quickie at the weekend and was turned down. Nothing last night, so I decided to talk about it with her instead of stewing. I SO want to try to manipulate her and every word I say I check five times and reject 10 other words as my mind whirls by ways to say things that might help my "need".

300 days, huray.... sigh