ten days and counting

So, 10 days til it's been a year. I can't say it's been easier for the last month. I've been tempted. I've yearned and ached. But I'm gonna make it.

The other day we were about to "do it" and I noticed myself thinking about moving us into a room where we've never done it before. I imagined doing it on a table. New, different, exciting. I know she wouldn't really be into it, but I wanted to. Why? I think the image of a couple doing it somewhere unorthodox sticks in my mind as meaning "they must have really been hot and bothered and turned on and into each other to have done it THERE!". But I can't make her more into me just by doing it somewhere weird.

Today is a "non" day. Why can't I have sex daily? Is it so much to ask? Just an orgasm or BJ?!!! Oh, why oh why!

So, what to report? Well, I tried to get her to "do it" outdoors on one of those rare opportunities. She wasn't into it, and tried negotiating by offering me a BJ. I can proudly report that I turned her down because I knew she didn't really want to.

That must be a first. I must be getting healthier!

Wasn't pissed about it either.

She's be best.

19 days and it'll be a year without the little M! (fanfare!)