So she gave me her side of these last four days. She is annoyed that I've not seemed to think about anything other than doing it. She couldn't care less about it. She was gonna grudgingly go along tonight, but hearing her say that made me go down a decision I knew id regret but hopefully is gonna be a blessing to someone some day.
I didn't do it out of anger, but I said looking after her & making her feel valued is more important to be than an orgasm. I immediately found myself wondering if I could change my mind, wake her up in the night, get her in bed in the morning tomorrow, anything! She didn't seem to give a shit, had no clue,seemingly, how damn hard that was to do & how hard it is to stick with a decision like that. This isn't the longest ive been without an orgasm, but it's close & been a while.
I guess this is what I asked for when I pleaded with her to say no & be strong sticking up for what she feels is right and not giving me sex all the time. Damn! (^8
Jesus please help me to let go & not be cross tomorrow again just like today thus making this pain pointless!
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Got throught that ok, and now we're working toward 2 days dry! At this rate I'm gonna be free in no time.... Seriously, it will be better to be free. I am painfully aware of how tough it is having my fix withheld, but I don't ever imagine how cool it will be to be FREE!
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