Last night I had no excuses, no anger, no real boredom.
I just saw an article about a new porn video site. Somehow it's harder to resist clicking on new links. It's probably more about my curiosity and liking knowing all about the net. It bleeds over and latches onto this stuff (this addictive and compulsive stuff).
Shame, there goes my M-Counter back to 1. Sigh.
Still good that I don't go into a tailspin of guilt and self loathing. I know I haven't lost all the ground that's been won.
But will it the temptation be closer to my surface next time? Will it be harder to say no?
We (me and Her) hardly talk about this crap anymore. Since ASI has podfaded and there seemed to be a summer lul at BlazingGrace.org I've kinda just drifted and not thought about all this stuff. Maybe moving on. The host of BlazingGrace pointed out that my email address "HealedAddict" might not be the name I want to refer to myself by. I know that day is coming. Maybe it's sooner rather than later.
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